My journey started over 10 years ago when I lost my mother at the age of 18 years old. Having lost someone so close, I felt abandoned, hurt and alone. When I lost the one person your suppose to have by your side throughout your life, I felt confused, afraid and frustrated. At this point, I had completely lost trust in life. Having had no support through this challenging time in my life and later becoming a new mother struggling with post-partum anxiety and depression. In a dark and terrifying place, I had hit my rock bottom. I was full of shame and mother’s guilt. I knew I had to start helping myself because my child deserved a better ME. He deserved a healthy mom!

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Through healing, I realize that anxiety had been affecting my relationships by being a people pleaser, feeling responsible about others emotions and being disrespected.

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The anxiety affected my self-esteem because I had no confidence in myself and being a new mother. I cared most about what others were thinking or doing, I lost sight of my values and  boundaries.

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Lastly, anxiety had played a big role in my overall health practically my whole life. I experiences lack of sleep from overthinking, stress, digestion problems, panic attacks, migraines, mood and hormonal imbalanced to name a few.

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Today, I have set boundaries in my relationships which makes spending time with family and friends a positive, fun time. I have built awareness of my thoughts and body, plus have taken onto physical activity such as weight lifting. Therefore, I have create a healthy balance in my life of me time and being a working mom. With this balance, I can be the mom I’ve always dreamed to be! Patient, Present and Positive!

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At Earthside Acres, the horses and I work with children, teens and mothers to help create a foundation of trust, respect and love. The families get to grow and really create a loving and supportive home environment. 

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Mélyssa Léveillé